Hi There D2O,
Firstly I want to say
It takes a lot to say and do what you are doing, and believe it or not that is your first step to changing your situation...
I am not sure what your attitude is toward religion and if you believe etc, but I know I have to tell you this, so hopefully you will see life from another viewpoint.
There is a great people on this forum all with their own experiences and beliefs and advice....but one thing we all have in common is we share the dream, so any advice coming from this forum with regards to following your dream is worth more than gold.
I want to start by saying, I have been on this forum since 2009 when I got my license, and am blessed to say have kept it current which fed my passion and dream that I almost lost sight of.
Put it to you this way, my story, (as everyone has their own)is as follows:
I am a christian and I must say from my heart I truly believe in God and give Him all the glory for what has happened and is happening to me. Anyway, to cut a long story short, about 5 years ago...2006 seems about the time, I was in dire financial turmoil
I was engaged to a wonderful woman, who stood by me in all ways, but I was not earning a livable income and was well to say lost in the day to day act of surviving. Well, I was thrown into the reality of life with a bang, for as I came home from work one day I found the sheriff at my door with a notice of execution of sale for my house. The bank wanted to reposses my house. I had no car and was working for a car retailer selling cars that enabled me to have wheels, but other than that I had nothing, no savings, no medical aid, no insurance and no credit, as I was extended way beyond any form of "safe risk".
I signed the court judgements that was delivered by the sheriff, giving me 45 days to resolve the outstanding debt or I would be on the street. I did not know where to turn....I was in hell...or so I thought as 2 days after that, I was called in by my boss and asked to resign as I had not made my targets for the past 3 months....
So here I am, about to get married, losing my house, no job, no car, nothing but the clothes on my back. Inside me though, through all this, my lifelong dream was still alive..the dream to become a pilot, whatever pilot, but flying was in my blood....( had to put that in so that all is in context)... Anyway that night I was dropped of at home by the company driver, I went to my room and fell to my knees and sobbed...I thought this was the end.
I called out to God ( I was a believer but not a practising believer) and asked and shouted and screamed to say what did I do to deserve this, and if this was the lot that life had to offer me then why did I have this dream inside of me that I could never fulfil? Surprise....no answer...typical huh? Anyway a few days or weeks after that my Mom and my fiance at the time dragged me to a church...for no other reason than to just get me out of the house...and then things started to happen. The message I got that day has been revealed to me over and over again in so many ways, so I have to share this with you...the message was "hope"....Sanlam had this ad on TV where it starts with a little boy at an airport watching the planes and realising a dream...the message was "START WITH WHAT YOU HOPE FOR"...
Hope...is that it? This is not tangible, this is not going to get me out of my financial ruin etc...you know all the questions by now...Anyway...I had to find out what "hope" really means...and I found out...Hope is the belief in things not yet seen....as easy as that...but what do you do with it? Hope is the foundation of faith, what is faith, Faith is believing in the realisation of what you "Hope" for.
Anyway I have have

gone on long enough...what I am saying is that that was the beginning of a turn around for my life. That day planted the seed of faith in me and like a child I asked God for my rescue out of my financial ruin(hope) and lived everyday in the expectation I would be delivered(Faith)...
I was delivered....Not in a way like, wave a wand and there your problems are all gone, but God opened doors and avenues for me that just blew me away...
Summary of then and now is as follows:
Then:
+- R1.6 million in debt,no car, no job, no insurance, no medical aid, no savings...only hope
Now:
+-R100k in debt (my car), a Cosmos 503 witha raptor wing, my NPL current, a great Job and prospects, an awesome wife who loves and supports me and my dreams...and Hope...
So D2O,
In essence, start with what you hope for...and man I know it is difficult, have faith, child like faith in our Creator, and never give up on your dream, God gave you that as your light in dark times...and when all changes..and believe me it will, give God the glory, for without Him...there is no hope...
If you want to talk...give me a call oh 7 one 6 seven 8 nine 3 oh 9
Fly safe...